I need to get back on the wagon. I need to get into the ZONE. I have the best intentions and the best laid plans but I am constantly sabotaging myself.
I need to make smart choices when I go out to eat or I need to not go out to eat.
I need to cut out or cut down the drinking to one day.
I need to stop lying to myself about how good I am doing when I am cheating myself.
My workouts are good. I've increased in weight and I'm pushing myself.
On Monday, I did lunges with 60 lbs (2 x 30 lb weights) and I'm still sore.
Then I went out yesterday and had ice cream and beer and tater tots. It wouldn't be so bad if that was once in a while but I blow all my hard work on the weekends.
I need to train my brain, tap back into eating only every 3 hours. Eating lean foods, Measuring my foods. Counting all my foods. I've been working out for 3 months and each time I see progress I burn it all out.
Decide. Commit. Succeed.
I believe in myself. I can do this.
Eat every 3 hours only.
Only eat planned foods.
If I go out to eat, I will make smart choices. Lean healthy foods. I will only eat half. I will sit on my hands if I need to.
I will only have 4 alcoholic beverages a week if any.
No eating at least 3 hours before bedtime (that's 8pm folks).
At work when I am done eating, I will move away from the table. I will sit outside, I will go on the computer, I will read outside.
At work, I will only go in the staff room to drink water.
I will make a list of non food related activities to enjoy with my husband, family and friends.
I will quit bad food like I quit smoking.
I am strong. I will do this.
One day at a time.
I'm going to aim for between 1500 - 1750 calories a day.
I know I've typed this all before, but I'm freaking serious this time.
The only way to break this 5 lb cycle is to commit and conquer.